tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34837345.post9191743957188191918..comments2023-10-18T10:06:05.134-05:00Comments on Adventures in Mississippi: Hoping and hoping....and hoping some more.Erinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16489084134152150464noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34837345.post-78276864468467477742008-02-12T12:44:00.000-06:002008-02-12T12:44:00.000-06:00erin,i struggle too. and i want to know that i am ...erin,<BR/><BR/>i struggle too. <BR/><BR/>and i want to know that i am approaching God in a way that honors God, Gods ability to change everything or nothing and over arching dousing of love on everything, and at the same time is honestly me pouring out my heart..because i think God cares. I don't do this very often..i don't have a satisfying prayer life. <BR/><BR/>BUT, i have this knowing in my "knower" that there is something to this...<BR/><BR/>and so i keep trying.<BR/><BR/>that's all i've got.Lindahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02535096358109673330noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34837345.post-5805265306221702852008-02-11T20:58:00.000-06:002008-02-11T20:58:00.000-06:00ok so funny story about prayer. I applied to the ...ok so funny story about prayer. I applied to the international field ed program, which you know, and got rejected, which you know. But I think I got rejected because of prayer. On the app. we had to state what most in our faith we were struggling with and I put prayer, namely that I don't always feel it and often forge to do it. The people interviewing me looked like I had just said that I believed Crystal Meth to be my personal Lord and Savior. I tried to explain, my issues and the fact that I was working on it, but it didn't seem to work and I was rejected. <BR/><BR/>But I'm learning (and this might just be the hope of those who struggle with prayer) that prayer is not for the confident. It is not an easy conversation. I am learning to look at it as mere honest conversation with God. I don't expect anything -- I just want to get it out, unpleasant though it may be. <BR/><BR/>A professor here started class by telling us to not be afraid to think and say the crazy thoughts because the crazy thoughts might just end up helping someone else. I think this is what prayer is. I'm getting tired of my feelings about God being wrapped up in nice packages with big words that are afraid to feel anything. <BR/><BR/>The great thing about our God is she doesn't leave when things get tough. God can take the anger, I think more so than luke warm sentiments. <BR/><BR/>Anyway, I've preached too long and you know all this. I love you and you're fabulous.Brennahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08253924788709071130noreply@blogger.com